I have toyed with the thought of selling handmade paper flowers ever since I started making them for my own wedding. I listed a few types of flowers in my Etsy store and sort of forgot about it, because for months no one really ordered anything. To my surprise, last week, some bride ordered from me four crepe paper boutonnieres for her February wedding! I am so excited! And oh so nervous. It is my first order!
Making paper flowers for an actual paying customer is different from making them for myself. Suddenly I am not so sure any more. What if she doesn’t like what I create? What if I made it too big, or too small? What if I got the color wrong? She wanted a one red rosebud and a pink rosebud (those were easy because she saw the pictures of the boutonnieres I made and wanted the same colors) but with “mint green” leaves instead. I had to hold my ipad displaying google image search results for “mint green” in Micheals in order to find the leaves of the right shade of green. I did find something close, but not exactly. Then again, even among the search results for “mint green” there are different shades of it. Go figure!
I almost had a panic attack when, at one point, I couldn’t find any red crepe paper at home. I knew I had it, but I could have used it all up for my own wedding flowers. If I had to order them online and wait for the shipment (how strange I never found any crepe paper in any local craft stores, and believe me I searched hard everywhere), I would not be able to deliver the final products on time. Thank God that I finally found some left over red crepe paper tonight. Phew~~~
All these fears and anxieties went away as soon as I gathered my materials and started making the first boutonniere. This is almost a therapeutic process for me. I was feeling creative, confident, and happy! Really happy. I was on a business trip last week and X is on a business trip last week and this week, so I was really missing him and feeling lonely. Until tonight. When I was creating something, I forgot that I was alone.
Considering how much time I spend making these flowers and how little I charge for them, I am probably making below the minimum wage. However, if I think about how happy it makes me to make something with my own hands, I would be willing to pay to have that kind of satisfaction. Therefore, I am really sincerely grateful to you, my first customer, for paying me to do something I love. I hope you have a beautiful wedding and a happy marriage. May these flowers bring much love and joy, from me to you.